Normal

I have one head, two eyes, two arms, two legs, two hands, two feet, ten fingers, ten toes. Nothing exceptional.

I wear glasses, but so do 65% of the adult population. Not an outlier.

I have tattoos, but so do at least 36% of adults. They’re nothing crazy either.

I read, go to the gym, watch TV, play video games, listen to music and like to cook. Show me what’s not normal there.

I brush my teeth and I even floss. Okay, the flossing is different, but it’s still normal. Recommended, even.

I have Bipolar II disorder. Cyclothymia. Manic-depression-lite.

I experience mood swings that range from almost euphoric excitement right through to the most crushing despair it is possible to survive.

I have lived my life by waking each day, never knowing how I will feel. Never knowing if today, this day, will see me full of energy and ideas, or stuck in an endless desert of apathetic despair, literally unable to move.

I still don’t feel like this is different. For years, I thought this was how everyone lived. I just thought they were better at managing it than me. And now that I have a diagnosis, now that I get the support and assistance I need to manage (not cure, never cure, there is no cure) my condition, I can live life well.

I am, by definition, not normal.

But I am still “normal”.

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