I feel everything.
I’m operating without a filter. There’s
no time to stop and think. Events are moving too slowly. And while I
feel all the things, the overriding sense is one of urgency.
I must make things happen. I have so much energy. I can’t waste time on being nice, reasonable, a “good” person.
And the people around me suffer because I can’t stop to consider how I’m impacting their lives.
How can I handle so much energy?
I make lists. I write down everything that needs doing, and everything I want to do.
Then
I cut it down. Which ones matter? Which ones are feasible? Which ones
are going to have an awesome impact? Which ones will I regret not doing?
What does this do?
Culling the list forces me to concentrate on what matters. The list becomes an external filter.
Yes, I can still feel everything, but I can choose what to focus on.
And yes, the urgency is still there, but now it’s focused. Useful. Like a blowtorch rather than a firecracker. Directed.
With
my list in hand, I can get to grips with making things happen. I’m less
distracted. More accurate. And less likely to lash out in frustration.
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